About Chapter 9 - September Conclusion & October Resolution 2018
ABOUT CHAPTER 9
September
September was quite the set back
September was quite the set back
September was the month anxiety decided that I had enough time to relax
September was not my favourite and quite stressful
Looking back September did not see a single day with nothing to do, nothing planned and it quickly turned into being quite stressful which quickly lead into being overwhelmed and just feeling constantly exhausted and that always means that my mental strength kind of gets weakened and therefor its hard to fight off anxiety...
The whole stress started with something amazing and exciting - my annual summer opera project in Munich. Every year in August/September we perform a unknown/hardly known opera in an unusual location. This year we had Dido and Aeneas together with The Rape of Lucretia in a swimming hall (Müller´sches Volksbad) in Munich. These projects always consume much much time and many evenings, days and weekends and a lot of sleep and energy but they are also so much fun and I never want to miss it. But in the end the project, as successful and amazing as it was, it ate up all my energy and power and made me vulnerable to even the slightest hint of my..."beloved"...anxieties.
What shall I say...more than half of the month I fought, I slept bad, my relationship suffered so did my work and Youtube and my blog and also my physical health but also I am able to say that I made it through, I made it out of bed every day and I kicked ass...my ass...as good as possible at least ;) Well its October now and I still am not as stable as I was two months ago but, but its uphill from here ^^
Otherwise lets see what did I do in September, besides singing and swimming the whole first half.
I was invited to a lovely birthday celebration from a wonderful dear friend of mine and I made an amazing teapot that day ;) also I´ve been to a Rae Garvey Concert for my Mums Birthday which was hard to manage with my fear of many people and small places and many people in restricted places, but the music was nice and the whole concert was and we had a wonderful evening. Oh and also I finally managed to kick my ass and I drove to Munich and in the city and back, yay ^^
The last September weekend...meaning last Saturday and Sunday I finally had the time to visit my Grandad after the longest time...even tho I had food poisoning last Friday which made it a bit of an unpleasant journey but it was so nice to see him again and he was so excited.
Aaaand thats it guys September was over and I got to say it was, luckily, over very quickly.
I cant wait for next April...so excited to finally move out and time could hurry up for that a bit ;)
Looking back September did not see a single day with nothing to do, nothing planned and it quickly turned into being quite stressful which quickly lead into being overwhelmed and just feeling constantly exhausted and that always means that my mental strength kind of gets weakened and therefor its hard to fight off anxiety...
The whole stress started with something amazing and exciting - my annual summer opera project in Munich. Every year in August/September we perform a unknown/hardly known opera in an unusual location. This year we had Dido and Aeneas together with The Rape of Lucretia in a swimming hall (Müller´sches Volksbad) in Munich. These projects always consume much much time and many evenings, days and weekends and a lot of sleep and energy but they are also so much fun and I never want to miss it. But in the end the project, as successful and amazing as it was, it ate up all my energy and power and made me vulnerable to even the slightest hint of my..."beloved"...anxieties.
What shall I say...more than half of the month I fought, I slept bad, my relationship suffered so did my work and Youtube and my blog and also my physical health but also I am able to say that I made it through, I made it out of bed every day and I kicked ass...my ass...as good as possible at least ;) Well its October now and I still am not as stable as I was two months ago but, but its uphill from here ^^
Otherwise lets see what did I do in September, besides singing and swimming the whole first half.
I was invited to a lovely birthday celebration from a wonderful dear friend of mine and I made an amazing teapot that day ;) also I´ve been to a Rae Garvey Concert for my Mums Birthday which was hard to manage with my fear of many people and small places and many people in restricted places, but the music was nice and the whole concert was and we had a wonderful evening. Oh and also I finally managed to kick my ass and I drove to Munich and in the city and back, yay ^^
The last September weekend...meaning last Saturday and Sunday I finally had the time to visit my Grandad after the longest time...even tho I had food poisoning last Friday which made it a bit of an unpleasant journey but it was so nice to see him again and he was so excited.
Aaaand thats it guys September was over and I got to say it was, luckily, over very quickly.
I cant wait for next April...so excited to finally move out and time could hurry up for that a bit ;)
- keep up the productivity
- save more money for the new flat
- embrace everyday and make every minute count ;)
- stay on the good path
- get back into working out this month!?!
well...I think I did everything but well this month...but you know...life happens ;)
Productivity was practically not there..even tho I got to say...I filmed so many videos but ya well nobody edited them, did they...did I...and all the pictures for all the blogposts I planned are there...now I only need to wirte them...
I spent all the money last month and worked out all the way from my car to my work desk and back...so I walked 40 m a day... ;)
when it comes to the other two...ya well I talked enough about it...I tried my best but sometimes its just life...it does its thing...
- save more money for the new flat
- embrace everyday and make every minute count ;)
- stay on the good path
- get back into working out this month!?!
well...I think I did everything but well this month...but you know...life happens ;)
Productivity was practically not there..even tho I got to say...I filmed so many videos but ya well nobody edited them, did they...did I...and all the pictures for all the blogposts I planned are there...now I only need to wirte them...
I spent all the money last month and worked out all the way from my car to my work desk and back...so I walked 40 m a day... ;)
when it comes to the other two...ya well I talked enough about it...I tried my best but sometimes its just life...it does its thing...
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OCTOBER RESOLUTIONS
- calm down and relax, try to get back to being as mentally stable as in August
- reduce the insane pressure on myself
- edit edit edit...I´m already behind...try to get back on track
- spend less money...only for neccessities
- work out to finally feel good in my body and more confident
Ya that´s it :) Kind of mainly just want to feel better again and I hope Youtube and my blog won´t suffer from that because that always makes me feel bad...
Otherwise I just want to feel myself again and be happy and relaxed and healthy!
- calm down and relax, try to get back to being as mentally stable as in August
- reduce the insane pressure on myself
- edit edit edit...I´m already behind...try to get back on track
- spend less money...only for neccessities
- work out to finally feel good in my body and more confident
Ya that´s it :) Kind of mainly just want to feel better again and I hope Youtube and my blog won´t suffer from that because that always makes me feel bad...
Otherwise I just want to feel myself again and be happy and relaxed and healthy!
Baby steps into the right direction
And thats it till the end of October :) and I hope its going to be a wonderful month, it looks very promising tho ^^ Lets see what it going to happen at least its my favourite time of the year so ;)
I hope you all are going to have a wonderful time!
With lots of love
♥♥♥
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