Chapter 9 of 12 - September Conclusion & October Resolution 2017

ABOUT CHAPTER9

September

How have you been - let me think about that for a moment

September was alright.

September was stressful and sometimes frustrating.

September was filled with music.
September was otherwise nice :)

September was good in general.
It was challenging on many levels and sometimes a bit sad and often overwhelming.
I had many many shows to take part and sing in which I talked about it my last chapter post. That meant a lot of train journeys many stressful traveling and often enough hurrying to be somewhere in time.
Something that seems totally normal to probably most of you but for those who feel and suffer from the same kind of anxious feelings this is pretty damn hard. I hope at last that I am not the only one who feels anxious the minute I have to be somewhere at a certain time...
Relationship wise it was amazing - those damn voices which constantly tell you you should better run and be safe finally stoped ... most of the time ^^ thats so great. Everything is great with mine and his family and we are as happy as happy possible ^^

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My resolutions for September were:

- do this years second declutter and deep clean session
- try to get back into the routine
- be productive and stay in the best mood possible
- do more with friends
- stay positive and keep on just doing things

Well in September I was on the road...well in a train a lot ^^
That means doing more with friends was a bit harder to manage timewise ^^
I had a lot of time to spend with the friends of mine who are part of the projecs I sang in - that was really nice. Then again it was kind of strange. The energy in the group was not as good as it used to be and that made me super sad because it used to be so much fun.
The second project was amazing - groupwise, musicwise and energywise ^^ even tho I was not very pleased with my performance...
Blog and Youtube wise I am not very pleased with myself either.
Yes I published another OWOP Challenge...but man that schedule was messed up and blog wise..well lets not talk about that...

I successfully did this years second deep clean ^^ feels soo good ;)
Routine...ya well...where to find routine when you constantly have different day schedules.
The third one...ya well...totally failed there :( makes me kind of angry but I´ll try my best from now on!

So in general September...was okay but not very productive...not very successful personally...the shows I was part of where super successful tho :)
So I´ll try to see this when looking back and try to make it better next month ^^
Allow myself to have time to not be as perfect as I expect it from myself...I always expect way to much from myself...don´t know why...not very healthy...not very helpful...
Don´t really know how to change it...

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October

One of my faaaavourite months ^^
All its colours...all its wonderful war days.
Foggy mornings sunny days and chilly evenings.
Thunderstorms and rainy hours. Snuggling and cuddling with cosy plankets and hot teas and chocolates.
You might see I love October ! ;)

The only thing that I can think off so far is a new semester that will start at the 16th and I am not so very happy with this thought...makes me feel very anxious and a bit cornered...
Besides that I have no plans so far...besides taking a autumnal walk everyday and collect leaves and concers and take billions of picturees ^^

So lets see what comes...

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OCTOBER RESOLUTIONS

- stay strong, productive and keep on doing things...just do them
- face those challenges
- try to focus on the positive things
- continue to get better and stay on track to get a better mental health

-  get back into learning swedish and repeating everything constantly
-stay with schedules and plans
- be productive and stay in the best mood possible

Still  have the feeling that my resolutions stay the same all the tim
but to be honest - positivity and strength - my current main goals in life...

How are you all doing?

Was your September more successful? Did you reach all your goals?
And in which department do you set your main goals?

With lots of love and have an amazing October ya´ll

♥♥♥

Verena